can really ruin your day if you let it.
i tend to take life as it comes, sometimes taking it on the chin.
it doesn’t mean, even when i learn from it, that i have to like it.
sometimes i hate it but that doesn’t change it. it just makes it harder to come to terms with.
i try, for the most part, not to hate things, whatever they may be.
except for skin cells. i do hate them, even if they are mine, but that is neither here nor there and well off the topic at hand.
an idiosyncrasy. one of many.
i don’t like knowing that my trusted laptop is wearing out.
it has been a true and blue, down to the ground friend to me; an essential tool in writing many, many blog posts, countless journal entries, insane and, at times, irrational ramblings that make little or no sense, unanswered twitter posts to Ron Howard, facebook updates that i sometimes regret and numerous poems that have either lifted my spirits or made me want to strap myself to active train tracks.
it has developed an untold number of photographs and helped me to find parts of myself that i thought were gone forever.
i don’t want a new one, i want the old one to work, but if i have learned anything up to this point, it is that i don’t always get what i want.
it is nearly impossible to write anything correctly without using the left shift key.
i, which, if my left shift key worked, would be in quotations, is a single-letter word that i use fairly often and without the left shift, it cannot be capitalized, as it is supposed to be.
so in this post, instead of some capitalization, i have opted for none.
it goes against everything my english teacher taught me and blends in perfectly with what my creative writing teacher worked tirelessly to drum into my head.
everything in life doesn’t have to be just so. it is what it is at the time.
making the most of it, irregardless of what it may be at the moment, is essential.
i like the left shift key … but i’m not going to dissolve in a puddle of anxiety over the loss of it.
it is, as i said, what it is.
it beats being jabbed in the eye with a sharp stick any day.
take it as it comes and if it happens to be on the chin, so be it. it is good, sometimes, to find those things i take for granted missing in action.
it reminds me to appreciate them – a prime example, besides my left shift key, are the gauges on the dashboard of my car, the overhead light and the dinger that reminds me i have left my lights on.
they suddenly, for no apparent reason, stopped working and then today, when i filled up with gas, they began working again.
i took for granted they would simply be there and when they weren’t i missed them terribly. it never occurred to me to miss them until they were gone.
i could, however, were i pulled over by an officer and asked if i knew how fast i was driving, say with complete honesty, i have no idea.
a nice fantasy, but i am just as happy not being pulled over. talk about anxiety. blue lights make me sweat every time, even if they aren’t aimed at me. i am already on a first name basis with half the scott county police force.
not something i am especially proud of, but true nonetheless.
i think everyone can do with a reminder to not take the little things for granted.
it is, after all, the little things, stacked one upon another, that build the big things which is, in itself, food for thought.