is to not make any resolutions. It doesn’t matter what I say to myself on the eve of the the first day of a new year; life will come as it will come. Things are stressful enough without adding to it unrealistic expectations and spur of the moment declarations. There is more than enough on my plate now. I find that the moments of quietness in my brain come further and further apart. It’s not that I worry about things as I’m not a worrier by nature, but that there seems to be a revolving door of thoughts and images, ideas and dreams, revelations and memories that filter through 24/7. Keeping up with what society deems to be important through material things and thought processes are as far removed from me as they can get. I could make promises that I know, even as I make them, I won’t keep them, but in doing so, I am setting myself up for failure and, doing it on purpose. I fail at what I attempt enough without doing it purposely. But failing at something doesn’t make it a lost cause, on the contrary, it gives me insight for when I try again. If I fail again, I will fail better and eventually, I will either succeed or gain better understanding of my limitations.
When I can see the things that failed in the past, trying again is easier because I know the things to avoid. I understand more of what makes me tick. It is a work in progress. I can’t expect others to understand what I, often, have difficulty understanding myself. I have failed at friendships, relationships, and many other things, but the only thing that will truly make me a failure is if I stop trying. Once the will to try is gone, then nothing remains but to become a useless entity in the world. I am who I am and will be who I will become because of the experiences I’ve had and the ones I have yet to experience.
The definition of a resolution is the act of analyzing a complex notion into simpler ones. There is nothing simple about making a life-altering decision at the spur of the moment simply because it is New Year’s Eve. Instead, it is irresponsible and self-deprecating to place unrealistic demands on myself that will plague my already overflowing brain with the idea that I am not able to do what I vowed, in an otherwise magical moment, that I would do.
I want to experience that which I haven’t experienced and repeat that which brought me great joy. I hope to see places I’ve never seen, visit places I’ve never been, find what I didn’t realize was lost and be there for the people who need me. My life is a simple one, for the most part, and I can’t think of a good reason to complicate it with unnecessary static.
No, there will be no resolutions this year. Instead, I will continue to take one day at a time and live it to the best of my ability, following the plan that God has for my life and relying on my faith to protect me from fear and indifference … and hope that, along the way, I am able to impact someone’s life by the one I lead. Tomorrow is only lost if I decide it isn’t worth the effort and as long as I have breath in my body, the gift of life is worth the effort.
I’m with you. I don’t believe in resolutions. I would rather try to live my life the way that we should. I don’t need to set a goal because it’s the beginning of the year in order to remind myself that I should live my life a certain way.
each day belongs to itself … there is no promise of another. I hope only to make the most of what I am blessed to received. Merry Christmas to you and your family.