ate my teeth.
You read that right.
He ate my teeth.
My plastic, partial, front teeth that I was wearing until I got my permanent bridge.
HE ATE THEM WHILE I WAS IN THE SHOWER!!
I flipped out.
No, to be honest, I FLIPPED OUT!!
I am a nurse and deal with the public every day and could not imagine embracing dozens of people ever day without my front teeth.
I cried my eyes out and then I called my mom and cried my eyes out some more and had her crying her eyes out on my behalf.
I am not a vain person, but when it comes to my teeth, I find I am vain.
I found my vanity horror when I realized I would have to face the world without my front teeth.
I called in to work and prayed that my Dentist could help me. I had no idea what she could do because my front teeth were gone.
My dog ate them.
How sad is that?
She took me in and had pity on me by letting me know that dogs eat lots of dental prosthesis because, well, because they just do.
It wasn’t Murphy’s fault. I should have put them away before I got in the shower.
He’s a dog and he does dog things; like eat teeth.
But my Dentist went out of her way to make sure I didn’t go to work the next day toothless.
She went above and beyond.
I have, though not yet permanent, teeth in my my mouth.
My beautiful, permanent bridge will be ready in three weeks.
Until then, I will eat soup and other soft foods while still trying to get enough protein to continue doing Crossfit four days a week.
I thank Jesus for making a bad situation better and will continue to thank Him for taking me through things I didn’t think I could handle.
When someone says to me “you couldn’t possibly understand”, I can say, “Oh, but I can”.
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and cut me over and over is something that I know intimately, but I realized today that though I know it, I only know a little piece of it. I have tried to imagine, even while I know I cannot fathom such an atrocity; losing a child. Then to realize that not only have I lost my child, but that nineteen other children were lost at the same time is immeasurable. I find that each time I think of such a horror, I burst out in tears for those who are facing that situation even now. Knowing that the world is mourning my loss would be of little or no consolation when faced with an empty bed in an empty room in an empty house in a now empty life. Knowing that there were nineteen different families who found themselves in the situation I was in would bring no comfort, only more bafflement, anger and grief. I think I would find it hard not to be bitter even as I was grateful, that there are parents everywhere holding their children safe this night. There are no words, no gestures, no deeds of goodwill that can even begin to bring comfort after such a senseless and brutal death of a child. No human words or gestures, anyway. Losing a child is losing a child, be it from sickness after months of hope and prayers or because that child is taken by the hands of a madman, a stranger, who decided to gun them down in cold blood for sins that the children had not committed. The little children are innocents and because of it, the battle becomes not one against nature or sickness, but of one against evil. It doesn’t make the loss any less painful, but it does make it different.
I have spent the better part of the evening trying to wrap my mind around what a relatively small, close-knit community must be feeling at this moment. I have not succeeded. Each time I picture in my mind’s eye the tiny bodies lying shot to death, I have to remind myself that I live in a country where young children are not gunned down as they attend kindergarten class. I tell myself that surely, there has been some mistake and that twenty children were not killed for a reason known only to a madman. I tell myself that it couldn’t possibly happen where I live and then immediately seek out my nieces and hug them so hard that they complain about it. I find that I cannot let them go. They squirm and complain, but letting them out my arms before I have breathed in the scent of them, touched their sweet little lips to mine and stroked their downy hair is not an option, not for a while, not until I am convinced that they are real and safe and accounted for. Something that twenty families in a small town in Connecticut will never have the opportunity to do again. The sorrow and pain that I feel is no more than a drop of rain in a writhing ocean compared to theirs and that in itself makes me cry even harder. I want to help. I want to console. I want to encourage. I want to bring comfort. But it is not in my power.
I cannot comfort them with words or gestures. Their lives have been irrevocably changed for the worse. What likely started as a normal day for these families ended in bone-crushing sorrow and depths of despair that cannot be described within the confines of this blog. The cries and screams of mothers and fathers will echo down every valley and soar above the highest mountains for days and weeks and years to come. Such sorrow cannot be contained and even though I did not hear them with my ears, my heart breaks at the sound I know is there and I find myself sobbing, yet again, for what cannot be changed.
I will do the only thing I know to do for them and that is to pray for comfort in a time of sorrow so black and so deep, an abyss that seems to have no way out. Time, it is said, is a great healer, and from personal experience, I know that to be true … but time has never had to heal me from the loss of a child and I find that while I have compassion and a deep, deep sorrow for the loss, I cannot even begin to comprehend it.
Lifting up, in the name of Jesus, those who will be unable to stand for a long time is the only recourse I have. But stand they will and fight they will and remember they will. The road will be difficult and strewn with landmines and obstacles that will take them backwards more than forwards; at least for a time. They will never get over it, may not get past it, but hopefully, can one day, come to terms with it enough to get out of bed in the morning.
This night, as the nation and the world mourns the needless loss of little children, may we join together and pray collectively so that a veil of protection can be woven around the grieving families. Let us tear our clothing and throw ourselves to the ground to wail for that which threatens to suffocate us. They have suffered enough for a lifetime. Let us pray that that they can face it tomorrow, and the day after that and the day after that.
The little children are in the hands of God, but the hands of their parents are empty and their hearts are shattered. Join me as I pray that they will be able to find some measure of comfort in some aspect of this tragedy and that in time, the memories that hurt them so deeply now will somehow bring them the comfort they seek. I don’t know what else to do.
Romans 12:21 Be not overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.
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I am currently a pet project of the devil’s and I couldn’t be happier. If the old goat is this determined to get me to stumble, then it can only mean one thing… and that is that I am moving in the direction God wants me to go. He tried to pull a fast one today and would have gotten away with it if not for my faith in a power much greater than his. Acknowledging first that irregardless of where I am or where I go in this life, God is with me… the Holy Spirit is with me… and once that is acknowledged, all satan can do is aggravate me… he can pinch and trip and kick about, but he can’t do any real damage because I am sanctified…. he can’t hurt me or kill me or even touch me… so he does what he does best… he deceives… he used my environment to make me second guess myself… And in the midst of his victory dance, God provided an opportunity for me not only to survive the sneak attack, but because of it, gain blessings that I hadn’t imagined … and all I had to do was leap… take the leap of faith. I’ve always wondered how I would know if I were supposed to take that leap… now I know… My God! My God!… but satan will slink back after he licks his wounds and devises another plan and some elaborate tale… evil never misses a chance to try to deceive you and make you think that you are not in the will of God… and he’s not afraid to deceive the people you love most and use them to do it… and as long as he keeps trying, you know you’re on the right track… I wish that every word and action that came from me would bring glory to Jesus, but we all know that won’t happen… I’m saved by grace… but i’m still a sinner and I will be until the day I die. Each day is a battle between good and evil and … I want to glorify Him and not shame Him… Jesus foretold that those who follow Him would bear persecution and shame for His name’s sake… I am willing to do that. I know the truth of my actions and so does God… and as I’ve heard my Dad say “The truth will stand when the world’s on fire”… Don’t let the things that are out of your control, control you. Stand up for what is right and don’t be afraid to speak up for yourself and defend yourself if necessary, but more than anything else, pray… Pray for guidance from the Lord… and pray believing with faith that, whatever you ask, according to His will, He will give you (1 John 5:14-15) and remember what it says in Hebrews 11:1 (kjv) now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Keep your faith, even when the world seems to be falling apart at your feet because it is in everything, sometimes even the dumb stuff, that lessons are learned… punishment can be harsh or blessings can be bountiful…. we have a choice. Don’t let satan push you around…