the more I learn how little I really know. I could stretch it and say that each day is a learning experience, but that would be extremely broad. During a single day, there are many instances that have the ability to either help me grow or hold me back; many chances to breathe each moment, hold it, understand it and then move on. I try not to dwell too much on the ones that hold me in limbo or worse, take me back a step. Of all the things I am or aspire to be, perfect isn’t one of them. As a matter of fact, it didn’t even make the list.
The first moment comes with awakening from sleep. That pivotal instant between dreams and wakefulness, when the first thought, whatever it may be, comes to my conscious mind. That single thought, if I let it, has the power to define my day. Life events, dreams, daydreams, thoughts, wishes, people, places; they all play a part in that first waking thought. Being the first learning moment of the day, however, makes it just that. The first. If I fail this one, I can either decide that the whole day is wasted and carry a chip on my shoulder or, I can move on. Live and learn. Isn’t that what we are all trying to do?
Being an idealist, I pretty much glide through life on a cloud of positive, often turning a blind eye and a deaf ear to the negative. I just take it, good or bad, as it comes. It can’t though, no matter how much I wish it, all be good. I try not to over-think things when they, as they sometimes do, go awry. Since I have already learned this lesson, I know that a long hike with my camera is good for calming such tendencies. As I make this journey, I continue to grow, learn, imagine and find pieces of myself I didn’t know were there. Every day has the potential to become an incredibly wonderful adventure. I have clothes, tripod, first-aid kit and my second favorite pair of boots in the car. When I head out to work in the mornings, it is always with the hope that today will be the day. For what? Who knows? And furthermore, who cares? If it doesn’t happen today, there’s a good chance it will happen tomorrow … and so it goes.
Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. ~ Proverbs 3:5-6